Body High

I’m not sure what has gotten into me.

Funny I would choose that sentence. One my mother would have used to describe me as a child when I was misbehaving. But I think it’s appropriate in this particular moment.

My body is buzzing from within. It has its own agenda and is not consulting my brain for guidance. Hell, it’s not consulting me for anything. This feeling has taken over, consuming my thoughts and distracting me from life. It is forcing me to make decisions I would normally never entertain, at least not in the light of day. It’s somehow reading my subconscious and acting on it without consequence.

I’m finding myself in circumstances completely unlike me, yet just like me. Moments that make me smile for days after. That make me yearn for more. I sit outside my body, listening and watching myself ask for what I want without fear or shame. Enjoying the spoils of these risks and becoming braver each day. And the more I do, the more I want. The feeling grows stronger the more I feed it and I don’t want to stop.

And that, that feeling of not reigning in this beast is the scariest of them all.

Words can change perceptions

I love it when I completely stumble across another’s opinion that matches my own, yet is much better written. This is a section of a blog from Ravenous Searching of a subject that has been rattling around my brain of late. Thank you for expressing it so perfectly.

At this point in my life, I feel like I have earned the right to be as slutty as I want to be--or not. What exactly would I be saving myself for at this point? I don't want to get married and I am trying to arrange my future so that I definitely will not "need" a man. I don't want to be a wife--I want to be a partner that you choose to be with. I don't want to be coy trying to elicit some sort of respect that a man reserves only for good girls. Respect me because I know what I want and I will not make you try to guess. I will not revirginate for anyone. I have earned my sexual stripes and my independence. I treasure my knowledge and experience, and so will you.

Click here to see it in its entirety.